Lacey's Journal
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October 28, 2008
Support
http://ilovinglyremember.com/index.php
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=26146397457
The first link is to a site that I stumbled upon one night, a few days before my mom passed away. The bracelet arrived between memorial services, so I was able to wear it to her funeral and my brother's wedding.
The second link is to a facebook group that is run by the woman that makes the bracelets. I had left posts regarding my bracelet story and received a couple replies. It turned out that one of them lost her mom to cancer within hours of my mom, and we both live on Long Island. So we started up a friendship, spent hours together at the mall, and have been talking and making more plans to spend time together.
Its somewhat comforting to know that I'm not the only one in mourning. Someone else understands whats going on inside me. We all deal with it differently, but in the end, it's really all the same.
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October 21, 2008
grieving
So, I haven't really used this site very much since I signed up. But now is the hardest of all; my mom passed away almost 3 weeks ago, and i just don't know what to do. My friends and family are all suportive but grieving is much harder for me. I still live in the house I grew up in, my room is feet away from my mom's, and I knew her better than anyone else. Because I'm the nurse in the family, I had to take care of everything in the beginning (chemo, appts...etc), then I made the decisions regarding her end of life care, and now i'm the one to get her things organized. I know that everyone grieves differently, but I just don't know how to get through this. I've been on a leave of absence from work, some days i don't even get of bed. I still haven't unpacked her bag that we took home from the hospital, and I'm avoiding doing laundry bc I know she has clothes in the hamper. I don't know how to move on and get on with my life the way it used to be. How long does it take to pull myself out of this hole that I feel like in?