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grieving

So, I haven't really used this site very much since I signed up. But now is the hardest of all; my mom passed away almost 3 weeks ago, and i just don't know what to do. My friends and family are all suportive but grieving is much harder for me. I still live in the house I grew up in, my room is feet away from my mom's, and I knew her better than anyone else. Because I'm the nurse in the family, I had to take care of everything in the beginning (chemo, appts...etc), then I made the decisions regarding her end of life care, and now i'm the one to get her things organized.  I know that everyone grieves differently, but I just don't know how to get through this. I've been on a leave of absence from work, some days i don't even get of bed.  I still haven't unpacked her bag that we took home from the hospital, and I'm avoiding doing laundry bc I know she has clothes in the hamper.  I don't know how to move on and get on with my life the way it used to be. How long does it take to pull myself out of this hole that I feel like in?